Thank You So Much

Omg! I felt so touched. Thanks so much Yan for being concern about me. I seriously don't know how to thank you for not making me sad. Even though that I'm not 100% happy, but you've made me smile when reading your text. I'm really touched. I know I'm so dramatic or whatsoever you wanna call me but what ever it is, I really love you Azyan Izzati for always being concern about me.

Oh and yes, I'm appreciate all of your advices like seriously. I keep reminding all your advices on my mind every single day, every single night, every single minute, every single and every single second. You want me to repeat that? haha no need lah k. I'm so tired to type them all, but i seriously want you to know that I really love you way much even though we didn't so close. Hik.

Lots of love from me,
Emalina ♥

Ema Rindu Shazni :'(

[1:38:10] adib.nasir: ema.

[1:39:11] Emalina Abd Aziz: Ha adib? Kenapa :)

[1:39:57] adib.nasir: aku trbukak blog kau tadi..dan ternampak gmba arwah..seriously aku rindu dia dowh.. :'(

[1:40:33] Emalina Abd Aziz: Gambar arwah? Tak silap aku aku dah delete gambar arwah. Kau biar betul?

[1:41:20] adib.nasir: aku bace post kau yg lama2 tu..dan ada satu gmba dia..

[1:42:35] Emalina Abd Aziz: Oh, tu semua post lama. Masa aku tengah betul betul down gila. Hm, kau okay tak ni? Aku tahu kau lagi rindu arwah kan? sbb kau lbih lama berkawan and kenal dia. Aku ni siapa je lah kan. Baru berapa tahun je.

[1:43:24] adib.nasir: hey..jgn la ckp mcm tu..kita sama2 rindu dia..tk sangka skjap jeh dia dh pergi tinggalkn kita semua..

[1:43:59] adib.nasir: dulu byk perkara yg aku buat dgn dia..tk kesah la baik atau jahat,tapi semuanya bermakna pada aku dan dia..

[1:46:34] Emalina Abd Aziz: Tak sgke kan? Aku lagi tak sgka dia pergi tggalkan aku sorang mcm ni. Kau bygkan org yg everyday text kau, everyday call kau tibe2 hilang mcmtu je? Tapi takpe lah. Aku cuma terima takdir Allah. Ada yg lebih sygkan dia iaitu Allah. Adib, arwah baik kan? Aku terlalu rindukan dia. Aku mcm tak sgke. Ish, kau ni buat aku sedih balik. Aku susah dah nak menangis sekarang. Maybe sbb dulu aku dah puas menangis. Hm, aku harap kau sabar k adib?

[1:50:47] adib.nasir: ok ema..sorry buat kau sedih..aku tk sengaja..aku cuma nk luahkn apa yg aku rasa skarang..aku tk tahu dkt sape aku nk luahkn lagi kcuali kau..plus2 aku rindu korang semua tahu tk..seriously aku jeles tgk gmba korang kt JJ tu..tapi jeles yg baik..bukan dengki..hehe..dulu kalau nk kluar ramai2,msti semua ada..now,ada yg masih ada dan ada yg tkde..bila lagi la kita semua dpt mc tu kn??maybe kau lebih muda drpd kitaorng ema,tapi kau dapat memahami kakak2 dan abng2 kau yg kadang2 tk btol ni..kau mmng bagus la ema :')

[1:57:21] Emalina Abd Aziz: Haha adib sorry lambat k. Aku tenga search lagu tadi. Haha apa lah yg bagusnya weh. Takde lah. Aku bersyukur arwah sempat kenal kan aku dengan korang semua all my seniors. Kalau tak, aku sorang sorang aku rasa boleh jadi gila tau tak adib. Hm, aku tahu kau rindu arwah, semua rindu arwah kan? Adib, arwah still ingat kita lagi ke tak eh agak agak? hm aku rindu dia lah. Everyday aku solat berdoa utk dia. Doa aku tak lengkap kalau tak sebut nama dia.

A minute ago, I feel so down, thinking about you and my horrible life. It seems that those pictures what I've chat with Adib last night are holding me back, yet I couldn’t bear to delete them. We haven't missed for even a single day to meet. I know we always argued lately and the night you’re gone and really really gone. It’s really hard to believe, and it took me alot to carry myself here, trying very very hard to smile. My blog really allows me to blog and post out anything about you. I hate that ache in my heart. I miss you way too much. All I know now, my life is meaningless without you. All things I do now are all about nothing. I don't live my life properly. I don't treat people like I used to. I'm not like the old me. I know. I'm sorry but to be honest, I'm lucky to have Syaza and Amiruddin here. Never forgotten all your friends. I'm so lucky I got chance to know your friends before you left me. If not, To be honest, I feel like dying inside. I really need you.

I miss the way you kiss and tell me you loved me. I just wish I could save you on the 21th of Oct.I miss you so much. Please don't forget me. I hope my prayers are with you sayang. I miss him way too much. SERIOUSLY. I can't even express how much does he mean to me, he means the world to me. But now, since he's not here anymore, I just don't know how to appreciate what's happening in my life. I don't know how to love anyone with all of my heart. I don't know how to live my life like I used to. Maybe it's all because I used to let him handle my life and I never been independent when I was so happy. It's all my fault, it's all my fault. It's all my fault! I'm tired giving fake smile tired tired tired tired. Allah is trying to test me in any way. I got so much challenges to face. I still got a very long journey to go through, InsyaAllah. I want to be strong :'( I don't know why I think too much about arwah these days. I seriously need to get rid of it. I miss him so much, I don't know how to express how much I miss My arwah Shazni. I hope he's doing okay down there. I hope he's in the best peacefully place. Please come to my dreams, every single night. That's the best I want from you, please come to me. I need to see your face, I need to hear your voice. Again, and all over again. Pleaseeeeeeee :'( I'm tired giving a FAKE SMILE to people around me :'(

Shazni, I just need you back. I want celebrate this holy Ramadhan with you. Sorry, I know I sound bad but I seriously need you way to much. Only Allah know what I feel inside. I laughed, I smiled, yes. But to be honest, they didn't come sincerely from my heart. I'm sorry I seriously can't continue this :'(

Sayang, I'll always pray for you no matter what. I love you Shazni ♥

Assalamualaikum my superb awsome friends.

Hey, as you guys know today was third day Ramadhan and I just wanna say Happy fasting day and happy performing Tarawih in this holy Ramadhan. May Allah keep us safe and I hope you guys puasa penuh k xP

By the way, My first day puasa, not bad I'm okay but not for today k. Today I'm so tired with teacher's bebel. Omg I seriously can't stand it more. Nevermind, I know all my teachers want the best for us. Today I'm not hungry but I'm feeling caused by desire to drink. Maybe I talked to much with Syaza at school. We talked and laughed much and around 11 a.m. I told Syaza I'm shooo feeble way much and I decided to not talked much and I just sat on my table plus read Maryam's novel named 3600 Saat. Well, not bad. That's all I can say.

30 July 2011 was the best ever memory that I've been created in this holy year. Know what? Amir was spent all his time with me by webcam. We talked much and that day he said to me that he miss me and he love me soooo many time till I get bored to heard that things xP Haha but deep in my heart, Aku bersyukur. Thanks. Hehe boleh pakai ke ni? Nevermind lah I miss and love ya too Singa Laut Handsome. You take care of yourself and don't cheating on me don't lie on me or else. Kalau kau buat aku tak kan marah tapi just that tinggalkan je lah aku and go get more girlfriends out there. Peace Amir YY. May God keep you safe there and good luck for your Stupid Quiz Test. Haha

Till here,
xoxo,
Emalina

Kiss Me k-k-Kiss Me !

Rumors Are All Around Us

Nothing to say just that I'm happy with Syaza and Mardhiya at school. We talked much and laugh loudly like there's no day for tomorrow. Haha actually, I miss spending my time with both my Gorilla as last week I didn't come to school. But today, we try loving2, sharing2, loughing2 and caring2 each other. Wtf? My words, Sorry. Dear my one and only God, please bless both of them with all your loves. Amin.

Anyway, today at home I've got nothing to do. I don't know why today my eyes sooo fresh. I'm too bored nowplus I'm so exasperate with my boyfriend. He didn't leave any of msgs to me till now. Omg! Please take me to somewhere lah I can die or being all emo at my room while waiting his text.Haih, Nevermind lah. Kalau kau ingat aku, pandai lah kau msg aku nanti k. Just that malas nak paksa paksa. I didn't take any of serious thingy of that cuz am ready for what will happen soon. K lah close story lah.

Nothing much to say, I just miss my late boyfriend badly. B, forgive me for not visiting you again and again lately I was busy with my stuff and all kind of works. Plus, Syaza was busy too. I will not stop praying may Allah keep you safe and rest in peace B.

K, till here. I need to go to Speedmart now as Mardhiya was warned to me to buy her Peanut Butter Cream Biscuit. Bye Bye ^^

xoxo,
Emalina.

Hello Lil Girls !

Hai beautiful awsome readers. I hope you're just in a good condition. How's everything doing? It's been awhile since I last made it here. Miss me? Hehe so ..
Okay stop, today I'm shooo happy like yeah yeah yeah. Ops! Today I'm hang out with all my handsome and beautiful seniors, I mean Faros, Moy, Diba, Dad, Chucky and Tablo. Haha kami tak banyak duit maklumlah tengah bulan ni kan kan so faham faham lah k. Kiteorang cuma pergi JJ Bukit Tinggi, Klang. Eleh, not bad okayyy. Anyway, Chucky make me laugh way so much when talked about our hair. Okay seems like we're Twin xP

By the way, We meet Diba there. Chucky's girlfriend. Omg! I didn't get any chance to know who is Diba actually. I think last i met her is at arwah Shazni's house. Haisyuuh! Kenapa comel sangat ni awak ni Diba? Okay i'm starting missing her now. We decided to watch a movie but all of us was too confiused lol semua nak tgk Flat 3A but Tablo was too cuak we cancled it and finally we watch Senario The Movie Ops Pocot. Haha nak tak nak, semua kena tengok jugak k

Yes, absolutely guys, not bad. Funny movie. We laugh laugh laugh loud and more loud like there's no tomorrow. Sumpah k aku cakap korang mmg lawak. Try lah. Kalau rasa tu lawak bodoh, dah diam takya byk bunyi pergi pilih cerita lain. Take it easy. Okay Tablo sat beside me and i felt like wanna lempang lempang lempang him cause he laugh loudly too much than other people there. Selamat lah boyfriend orang kan. K I'm cool. Enough that. After that, we're too bored and got nothing to do there so we asked Chucky to take our picture. The boys was posing like so gila so jakun k, esspecially Axip. Okay done. Then me, Dad, Chucky, Axip and Yankuro lepak at My Taste Kopitiam while waiting my dad. Okay i hate Axip much way okay. Err --' Curi gelang aku taknak pulang. Okay aku minta maaf balik mcmtu je tadi sbb tenga bengang dengan si munyet ever tu.
Sampai sekarang ! Suka menyakat aku dari dulu wtf okay tapi aku cool xP Yeahh imma collidatzz.

*From left : Moy, Me, Dad, Diba, Axip, Tablo, Faros and Yankuro. Pity Chucky haha xP
Okay if you looks carefully, I didn't seems like am junior right? hihi


Okay catch ya later babe, Im gonna miss all my cool gempak seniors like seriously. Much love from Ema.

xoxo,
Emalina

It's Always Been Crazy, Always !

Sorry for not keeping updated. Lol! I've been busy lately. Busy setteled up my bussisness haha k i lied xP No lah, just that, I miss Amiruddin busuk gemok lah. Haih, kau ni jangan main gila makin lama kau kat sana makin gedik aku tengok. Suka bagi aku geram kan sayang? Nevermind. So today is Saturday and it so sucked as always. It's not that sucked actually, but hmm idk just that i've got nothing to do lah. It's the worst day ever okay.

Omg! I can't wait for next year. Next year is my senior year xP Oh ya, But i don't think so i can be a good senior to all my juniors haha sbb aku pon sama mcm korang. No lah just that please don't call me 'kakak' okay. I hate considering myself as kakak cuz you know what? I hate being old. Oh actually i've planned to go for a tuition at Institut Harapan with Syaza but because of my laziness in head, i didn't go. Forgive me Syaza. I think, there's no point and its more better to take tuition class next year as next year is my Big Examination Year. Hooray ! --'

By the way, I can't sleep now Oh God, puhleaseeeee! Okay lemme tell you guys, around 3 p.m. , i slept like there's no tomorrow in the couch just now. Wtf? Okay Ema teruk. haha thats why I said, Saturday was the worst day ever, maybe.

k sekarang ni sumpah bosan gila. I don't know what to do now, i have no idea now. Mindless! Bye bye xP

Catch ya later,
Emalina.

Broken Dark Fairy Tale

WTF I REALLY CAN'T STAND IT ALONE BY NOW. BUT I KNOW I'M ALRIGHT I'M OKAY AND I CAN GO BY MY OWN. SERIOUSLY I FEEL SO NUMB WAY MUCH RIGHT NOW. I'M SCARED THAT I'LL GIVE UP ON HIM SOON. BUT I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS MY FAULT. I SHOULDN'T BE FEELING THIS WAY, BUT I AM.
BOY, PLEASE KNOW THAT NOW THINGS ARE GETTING WORSE. I MEAN LIKE, EVERYTHING SEEMS SO DIFFERENT THAN BEFORE.

YEAH I'M FED UP NOW LIKE SERIOUSLY. SORRY FOR THIS STATEMENT.
- I DOWWAN MAKE ANY OF SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU. JUST THAT, TREAT ME NICELY AND I'LL GIVE YOU A GOOD FEEDBACK -

Love, Ema.

He Was My ... And I Missed Him

I really enjoyed spending time with you, even if we were just going to be sitting around and talking about nothing. I'm so happy the day we hang out Putrajaya and we just sitting in car and talked about nothing bla bla bla and you was make me laughing way so much about this one girl with her boyfriend. Okay stop i seriously can't continue this hahaha so damn ishh! There are a million things i love about you, like your nose or the way you smiled, the way you looked me in the eye too. and I just get the greatest feeling when i made you laugh, i feel as if my company makes you happy, and that’s what i wish for you. for you to be happy. now you leave me alone at Banting gosh, seriously you make me missing you way much, i'm gonna pray all the best for your new life there and of course for your study. i'm not gonna stop praying for you. I seriously lost any of words to say how much i miss spending time with you. Lucky, we still contact even you was in busy way and sometimes we having much argueing just because a simple things. Nevermind, I'm still inlove with you lah pundek haha kbye. wishing all the best for you there Amiruddin.

xoxo,
Emalina.

Lemme Let You Know

To all my close people, close friends, schoolmates and my sister. I know you've been seeing me all alone at school or just with Syaza at school. And some of you guys asking me whether i'm having a huge problem with all my girls or something else. To be honest, No ! I'm not fighting with them. We're just okay as you can see. It obviously explains everything right? I just wanna things get clear. I need a space. A very big space for myself okay. All I can say is I do friends with all people. Just that i don't think I need a close friend i mean bestfriend except Syaza. So no one will get hurt and no one will hate. I hope all the things I'm do now, will make everyone happy with it. Hence, I just need a new life and think about my future undertaking and help my dad.
Oh and yeah, Thank you to all my friends for your concern to me. And like what i've told you I'm just doing okay but I'm just trynna look forward in life and my future. And I'm sorry if this entry might hurt any of you. I'm just trying to make it clear, no offense. Salam.

xoxo,
Emalina

Hello readers,
Seriously I kinda busy with my stuff and else. Omg! I miss blogging like seriously.
Fisrt of all, I kinda sad, sumpah do. I feel so down now. I really can'tstand it alone anymore.
Dissapointed with my own bestfriend is always happened to me /: Okay nevermind lah. I didn't take any serious thingy of that.

Oh and yeah. Anyway, I seriously being all emo at my classroom after the one and only 'becok' girl come to school. Maigad, please go dai ah minah. Why so cruel Ema? Hik.

She : Rumah aku ada aircond. Best sejuk!
Friend : Rumah aku takboleh pasang aircond sbb rumah aku dah ada 3 peti ais.

Wtf? What the hell is going with them?! I seriously can't stand anymore lah weh like I come to school just to hear their fukimaks merepeks story. Okay chill Ema. Actually aku tak join dorang pon okay. Just that tempat dorang memang belakang aku. So apa yang dorang merepek merapu, automatically aku dengar --'

Oh by the way. Haritu pergi tengok movie dengan Amir. 321 Cinta. Okay sumpah macam geli er er er. Tapi dah mamat ni suka sangat kan? Aku pon melayan je ah ketawa kih kih kih. Haha sorry sayang. Never forgotten my dinner with mom and dad last night. It was fun beb! After duduk en, my stomach keep pushing me to said Nasi Ayam Lemon. Maigad, dah lama tak makan. Er I looked so greedy and jakun plus I cilok my mom punya ayam xP Hihi coli coli coli. Sayang mama ah mama cool mama gentle suka bagi green light. Haha. I'm shooo lucky. Kbye! Muah

Till here,
xoxo,
Emalina.

Nothing is as simple as uncolored thing

Ema tak couple dengan Amir. Tapi, Ema happy bila ada dengan Amir, Amirn faham Ema. Amir teman Ema hari hari. Amir dah banyak kali dengar cerita Ema and biar lah benda dah lepas. Ema dah janji dengan diri Ema sendiri, yang Ema taknak couple dengan siapa siapa. Cukuplah, Shazni sorang. Biarlah Shazni jadi lover Ema sampai mati. Ema hidup dalam dunia ni bukan untuk mengejar kesedihan, tapi untuk mengejar kebahagiaan. Ema buat semua benda ni, semua ada maksud. Ema sekarang dah happy dengan Amir, bukan maksudnya Ema dah tak sayangkan Shazni. Ema sayang Shazni lebih daripada semua benda. Family comes first, then Shazni. Amir is next. Ema sayang Amir, Ema nak ada dengan Amir sampai Ema mati. Amir dah janji dengan Ema yang dia nak jaga Ema. Apa yang Ema berani cakap sekarang ni, Ema memang sayang Amir. Tapi kalau Amir nak hidup dengan Ema, datang jumpa Ema bila dua dua dah besar, bila dua dua dah boleh fikir pasal diri sendiri, bila dua dua dah boleh cari duit sendiri, bukan guna duit mak bapak. Sekarang ni, Ema taknak fikir pasal apa apa other than fikir pasal family Ema sendiri and study Ema. Itu yang paling penting dalam hidup Ema sekarang. Ema tahu, ada orang yang tak suka Ema dengan Amir. Semua sibuk cakap sana sini 'Ema dah tak sayang Shazni ke'. Banyak dah benda yang Ema dengar. Banyak dah benda yang Ema dapat daripada orang orang yang tak kenal siapa diri Ema yang sebenarnya. Ema hidup bukan untuk mementingkan kebahagiaan orang lain. Kalau sampai mati Ema jaga hati orang lain, sampai bila Ema nak hidup sedih? Siapa pula yang nak jaga hati Ema? Siapa pula yang nak hidup dengan Ema? Terlalu awal untuk Ema cakap pasal jodoh. Sekolah pun tak habis lagi, tak pernah jejak hidup lepas sekolah. Duit makan pun mak bapak yang tanggung. Ema tak berani nak cakap yang Amir tu jodoh Ema. Tapi, doa Ema takkan lengkap kalau takda nama mama ayah, Shazni and Amir. Ema dah mula doa untuk hidup Ema dengan Amirn. Apa yang Ema rasa sekarang, Ema happy dengan hidup Ema sekarang ni. Ni semua sebab Amir and family. Amir jaga Ema. Dia faham Ema. Ema dah penat hidup untuk menjaga hati orang lain. Ema dah sedar semua benda ni, Ema dah tak boleh jadi bodoh. Ema dah tak boleh hidup just untuk membahagiakan orang lain. Apa yang Ema harapkan sekarang ni, terima lah Ema dengan Amir. Bukan niat busuk or apa apa lah. Ema bukan nak rampas Amir dari ex dia. Ema dah try dulu pujuk dia, tapi Amir cakap dia nak mulakan hidup baru. Ema takboleh paksa. Cuma kadang2, dia hidup dibayangi dengan kenangan lama. It's okay, Ema faham. Bagilah Ema peluang untuk hidup dengan Amir. Bagilah Ema peluang untuk jadi happy. Walaupun untuk sementara, Ema redha. Ema redha dengan apa yang Allah bagi. Ema happy dapat hidup dengan Amir yang boleh jaga Ema, ingatkan Ema untuk semua benda, bawak Ema jalan jalan. Ema bersyukur dapat tahu yang Amir sayang Ema. Tolong lah jangan mengaibkan pasal Ema dengan Amir ni dengan benda lain. Tolong faham perasaan Ema, Ema dah tak sanggup nak baca apa yang orang orang bagi dekat Ema.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Kau ciptakanlah Shazni bin Samsol untukku, Ya Allah.

xoxo,
Emalina.

OMG !

                                     * Sorry, The picture was not too clear.

Him : Adik, dah balik sch belum?
Me : Dah abang. Kenapa?
Him : Tunggu kat rumah tau? Jap lagi abang nak datang.
Me : Ada apa?
Him : Adalah xP
Me : Mengada kan? Okay.
......
Him : Adik, abang dah nak sampai.
Me : Okay okay. Adik keluar ni.
Him : Adikkkkkkkkk :) Nah rojak utk adik.
Me : Eeee apa susah susah ni abang? Haha Thanks abang. Adik syg abang sgt.

OMG ! I really really miss him. I don't know where is he now. But, I'm missing him like seriously.
I hope hes in a good condition and happy with his life now. I seriously wanna meet him but I don't know whether he still remember me or not. Perhaps I'm still be a part of his life. Perhaps.
I've tried miscall him yesterday morning but Im too sad cause I didn't get any respond from him. Abang, where have you been haa? I miss you effin' much :(
Adik nak rojak buah tu lagi :(

xoxo,  
Emalina ♥

Girl, Be Strong

Hello friends.
So today, I didn't go to school. I know today is the first day school. But somehow, I didn't get enough strength to wake up for school this morning. I'm having a real huge problem plus I'm not well. I can't take this any longer, I feel like dying! It's been a few months since the last time I had this kind of terrible problem. I'm sick of this headache thingy!

I planned to go to Banting with Syaza because I want cut my hair as my hair now getting long and such a ugly hair. But unfortunately, I've canceled it because I need to accompany my mom so yeah I'll inform to Syaza after she got back from her school. So sad we couldn't make it. I hope we can meet on the other date k sayang? Hehe really really wanna see you.

I don't know why I feel so weak these days. I've tried my best to be strong. But I just don't know why, lately every time I listen to arwah's favorite songs, every time I take a look at our pictures, my tears will automatically fall down. I don't know how to express this feeling I'm having deep inside my heart. I really really miss him too much. I hope I can take this. But I seriously, can't!

Ya Allah! Please forgive me. Please, give me strength to go through my long journey in life perfectly. Ya Allah, my one and only God, please bless Almarhum Mohd Shazni bin Samsol. Please place him with those You love, Ya Allah! :'( 


xoxo,
Emalina ♥ 

New Beginning

I woke up early today. I woke up with my head feels so heavy. I tried to sleep again but my eyes refused it. So I get up and take my laptop. Nak mandi pon masih awal. Sojuk lah. Actually before tidur tadi Ema nangis-nangis. I have such a huge problem but I can't tell you guys how's my problem looks like. Let me handle it by myself and I know I can. Okay today is Monday like you know, I don't want go to school because seriously I'm not in mood and I'm sho malas plus I need to accompany my mom tomorrow morning. I don't know what place but as a great good daughter, I just follow her. 

Okay, Ema cuma nak cakap. Ema taknak musuh dengan siapa siapa lagi. So, Fanny, I'm sorry for all the words and I'm forgive you. I hope you can accept my sincere appologise. Hence, I've deleted all the stupid thingy and I don't want to hear about that anymore. Sorry for being all emo to you. I hope this is the last time we argued because of arwah Shazni. Well, Apek's words was so true! 'selagi aku ada sifat dendam, gentle arwah tak tenang and maybe arwah kecewa dgn sikap aku' . That's was so true and I really want to thank to you because remind me about that. Like you know, I'm just too dissapointed and people know how much I love arwah Shazni. I know arwah Shazni love both of us and we should accept the fate and pray the best for him. Perhaps hes in better place now. Okay end story lah malas cerita panjang panjang.

xoxo,

Emalina

I'm Missing Him

To be honest, I'm seriously going to get jealous seeing those people all around got couples. You're not here anymore, I'm not as comfortable as I seemed to be.

I miss spending time with you. I wish I could turn back time and spend the rest of my life with you! I seriously can't live without you. I hope I can be strong and even stronger to move on. But I know I can't. I'm tired being a weak girl, I'm tired of giving a fake smile. But I think that's the best thing I'm supposed to do.

I don't know how to say this, you're my everything, you're the only person I love the most. When you're no longer here, everything's changed. Everything is not as it used to be. I miss you so much, my beloved boyfriend. I hope you're in a better place and never forget me.

Now, what keeps me going is our voice record in my cell. I won't delete it and I'm probably going to keep them in my memories, memories I can never ever forget. You were the one who always strive to solve my problems and always guide me. You were the one who always there by my side in times of need.


But now when I need you, why you can't be here again :'(
Al- Fatihah for you Shazni bin Samsol.

Hip Hip Hooray !

Hello. Aaa Sunday, slow down please. Why so fast haa. I don't want go to sch tomorromw lah like seriously oh. I'll rather being bored at home than need to see all my friends's face. I don't know why I'm acting so evil by saying that but seriously haa I tell you I hate my classmates except Mariam and Fitri. Okay I don't want talk about this lah. This thing seriously make me feel so malas so menyampah.

Anyway, I just wanna share something. Yesterday night was fun I'm hanging out melepak with both my sisters, Kak Eca and Yong. Omg! I really miss Kak Eca so effin' much. Long time we didn't lepak together and share about fashion style right? Yeah I understand that you need to work hard to buy a car. Hihi So then later we can rock our body yeah coooool mannnn. Yesterday we ate roti canai as Yong was hanker to eat that. So I suggest to them to go to Tasbeeh Bistro as the roti canai was too delicious. I bet you guys will say the same thing xP Okay actually we planned to go to Kl that night with Yong's boyfriend but I'm too tired plus I bet my dad will say No. Huu, sorry girls. I cant join you guys last night. Then they send me home around 11.00 p.m. and I wish my dad was sleep already and perhaps, so that I didn't need to answer all his questions. Hihik. Unfortunately guys, I saw my dad was waiting for me at the door and I felt so afraid and I just lost any of words to say so I gave him a big smile. Tehee xP I changed my clothes and layed my body on my sweet bed as I need to reply someone's text. We text as usual and both of us was too bored for tomorrow, I mean today. He asked me to accompany him to watch a Kl Gangstar's movie. I was like lol and not so sure whether I can go or I just give him a big saddest. Haha. Omg! I really want to watch that movie but I'm not sure yet lah. Perhaps I can accompany him.

By the way, today is Sunday and actually I planned with Syaza to go to Arwah Shazni's grave as I didn't go there for a long time. But I was period. Seriously I hate this stupid thingy! But it's okay and nevermind because still got another day kann Ema? Wah, banyaknya Ema membebel harini. Hee see the leg lah. Okay that's all for today. Wish you guys superb great Sunday and have fun!

xoxo,
Emalina.

I'm Just Answered This

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage : Mineral water.

2. Last phone call : Amir
3. Last text message : Syaza <3
4. Last song you listened to : I do by Colbie Caillat 

5. Last time you cried : 09 Jun 2011

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice : Aaaa, haha yes.
7. Been cheated on : Loads of time.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : Yes.
9. Lost someone special : Yup, he's very very special.
10. Been depressed : Most of the time, so yes.
11. Been drunk and threw up : Nope!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 
12: White
13: Pink
14: Dark Blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: Yeah.
16. Fallen out of love: Yes.
17. Laughed until you cried: A hell lot of time! Lol.
18. Met someone who changed you: Changed me to a better person, yes!
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes, my gal, Syaza
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Tumbuk sajo!
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: My girls, haha!
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Half of them.
24. Do you have any pets: I hate to have pets!
25. Do you want to change your name: No.. Haven't thought of changing it.
26. What did you do for your last birthday?: I did nothing.
27. What time did you wake up this morning?: I'm not sleep at all, hihi
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Sleeping, my full time job.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: The day after SPM ends.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: She's always with me laaaa.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : Nothing, my life has been treating me good so far.
32. What are you listening to right now: Kisah Hati by Alyah Y.Y
33. Have you ever talked to a person named tom?: No..
34. Who's getting on your nerves right now: Nobody.
36. Whats your real name: Emalina bt Abd Aziz

37. Nicknames: Ema
38. Birth month: February baby.
39. Zodiac sign: Picses.
40. Male or female: Female.
41. Primary School: Sek. Keb. Bandar Baru Sentul and Sek. Keb. Bandar Banting
42. Secondary School: Sek. Men. Keb. Bandar Banting
43. High school/college: One day, Insyaallah. UiTM, pretty please.
44. Write whatever you want here: Babi
45. Long or short hair?: short forsure.
46. Height: 146 cm kot.
47. Do you have a crush on someone: Yeah, man.
48. What do you like about yourself: Pemalas and eat a lot.
49. Piercings: None.
50. Tattoos: Minaiiiizingkaw!
51. Righty or lefty: Righty


FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: None.
53. First piercing: Ears piercing.
54. First best friend: Najihah bt Zaini
55. First sport you joined: Netball
56. First vacation: Lupa!
58. First pair of trainers: None.

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: Sure, chocolate.
60. Drinking: Nothing.
61. I'm about to: Fattttttt! O.o
62. Listening to: Cuba by Aidil
63. Waiting for: Text from him <3

YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids: Yes!
65. Get married: Yes, that's the most important thing. Hoho.
66. Career: A good girlfriend for his boyfriend and a good wife for his husband. Tehee!

WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs, baby. Hugs!
69. Shorter or taller: Taller, that's for sure.
70. Older or Younger: Older ah!
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous. Omg, you have no idea how much i hate romantic thingy!
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice stomach O.o
73. Sensitive or loud: Both
74. Hook-up or relationship: Hook-up.


HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: Wish!
77. Drank hard liquor: Nope.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes, most of the time.
79. Sex on first date: Uish, i have a lot more things to do lah.
80. Broken someone's heart: Yes but I didn't mean to.
82. Been arrested: No.
83. Turned someone down: Yes, my favourite! Hahaha.
84. Cried when someone died: Yes. Arwah Shazni, my boyfriend
85. Fallen for a friend: Aaaa.. IDK.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: A big yes!!
87. Miracles: Sometimes.
88. Love at first sight: Iya, dong.
89. Heaven: Yes.
90. Santa Claus: No!
91. Kiss on the first date: No? O.o
92. Angels: Yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Hell no!
95. Did you sing today: Yes, always lah..
96. Ever cheated on somebody: Yes yes yes yes!! Omg :(
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: 2010 pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :(.
98. The moment you would choose to re-live: The moment before this date : 21th of December 2010.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love: Yes, very.
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths: Nope at all!

So now.. What are you waiting for? Answer 'em all! Go go.

Cheers Morning

Hello. How's your holiday been treating you? Mine's going okay so far. Yeah I know I didn't have any vacation with my family as my parents are off to work. But atleast I felt so lucky to have my girl around and having a great day together. Like you know, I wouldn't bore myself being at home with no fun cause my dad's reminding me too much about my result for PPT. Maigad, I'm afraid like seriously ouch ! Okay wtf I really don't want spent my time at home studying and watching television, That's totally not teenager's life xP hihi

So I planned to go for a movie with my girl, Syaza. We having too much fun on that day eventho berdua je. We almost fight because she said that she wanted to watch 'X-man' and I was lol I really can't stand to watch action movie and I told her it was very very bored movie. But she want it too and yeah I'm surrender. huhu. Okay, I though that was a vely vely vely bored movie but I realized that I am wrong because I tell you haa it was amazing ouch I like. And and and the most important thing is Syaza belanja wa popcorn wa cakap sama lu. Yay! Thanks friend and yeah never forget our 'xoxo' okay minah?

Oh by the way, is there any one of you know why people are acting so .. when talk about KL Gangstar?  I'm just too curious.Why you guys so semangat la? hihi I'm actually jeals cause can't go out today. Chill.

Anyway, I got to go because I've a lot things to do for today as my phone charger was giving me trouble, haha okay I will update and keep on membebel back as soon as I finish my work. Have a good day for today guys.

xoxo,

Emalina

Found my happiness !

Hello readers,

It's been so long I didn't updates my blog. Yeah imma quite busy with my life, study and stuff. I'm promise to you all after this i'm gonna head myself to rajin mengupdate blog. InsyaAllah :) Okay everybody busy and enjoy with their holidays right? But not for me x( How could I enjoy my holidays if only RM20 on my purse. Omagad --'. I can die die die. Mami, help me please.

Okay lets talk about my life. Hihi I'm happy now because yeah I already found my happiness, Like seriously ! Okay sekarang Ema dah kuat, dah besar, dah yakin dan berani. Absolutely, I'm proud of myself. Thanks God for keep with me safe in Your way :) Gosh, I'm happy.

Here, Ema nak minta maaf dekat semua orang. I don't know why the reason but please I am sorry for the kuajak words that came out from my mouth. For all my friends, those yang suka atau yang benci, pon.. Ema minta maaf. Sorry for neglecting you guys and I didn't meant to do that shit, seriously ! Yes, I admit it, I'm neglecting people now but it just because of I want start my new life and please don't salah sangka yang Ema lupa kawan. I didn't meant that. I just want new fun environtment yeah aku nak cari sendiri. I hope you guys can understand what I try to do. Ema hidup dekat dunia ni bukan nak cari kesedihan, tapi nak cari kebahagiaan. Anyway, I wish lots of luck to all my haters there.

xoxo,
Emalina.