Thursday, March 31, 2011

FACT :)

There're are maybe two reasons why people changed :

--> They have learned a lot.
--> They've been hurt so much.

Don't you agree with it ? It's up to you people :)
That is my opinion.
People keep asking me why i'm changed a lots ?
But to me, every people will changed in plenty of way some other day.
If they change to be a bad person, keep care about them. 
Cause i am sure that he/she need someone to be with them :)
Don't keep blaming each other !

That's all for today :)
I will post again tomorrow, InsyaAllah.
Assalamualaikum.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

OH 2010 :{ / GRRRR 2011

Aku benci 2011 :{ Aku benci !
Aku nak 2010 balik, yeah even 2010 aku hilang org yang paling aku sayang,
tapi aku lbih rela tanggung derita hilang org yg aku sayang drpd 
tanggung segala derita masalah hidup aku yg aku tktahu 
smpai mana penghujungnyaa :{
Atleast aku hilang org yg aku sayang, dia pergi menghadap Allah.
Aku takperlu risau sebab aku yakin Allah akn jaga dia.
Semua manusia yg hidup pasti akan mati suatu hari kelak.
Cuma masa je yg menentukan semua tu.
Tapi tolong, aku benci 2011 !

2011, Aku start gado dengan Wani Jha Kzra.
Gado kiteorang bukan sehari dua. Aku rasa org lain pon thu berapa lama kiteorg gado.
Yeah now kami dah berbaik except Kzra. 
Aku tahu, nak maafkan orang bukan senang. Aku tak boleh paksa dia.
Maybe she need a long time to forgive me.
Okay Kzra, Ema tak kesah :')
Yg penting, Ema ikhlas mintak maaf.
So yeah, sedikit sebanyak aku happy dpt berbaik dgn Wani & Jha.
Tp, entah kenapa, btl apa aku agak selama ni, klu dh gado smpai tahap mcm ni,
agak kekok+mustahil utk kita jadi mcm dulu.
Aku pon tak boleh nak buat apa, nk tk nk aku kena terima.
Tapi aku bersyukur dorg dapat maafkan aku.

Okay 2011, lg gado :/
Aku gado dengan kawan-2 sch baru aku dekat sch Td.
Bagi aku, aku teraniaya, tapi maybebagi dorang aku salah.
Tapi takpe, aku tak suka bermusuhan dgn ramai org, aku ikhlas aku mintak maaf.
Ni pon aku takboleh paksa-2 sebab bukan mudah nak buat org yakin dgn apa yg kita kata.
Selebihnya, dorang nak maafkan atau terus bermusuhan, aku tk larang.
Tapi aku harap dorang pon dpt maafkan aku mcm mana Wani dpt maafkan aku :')
Amin.

2011, lagi aku hilang abg aku, Dad.
Aku tktahu kenapa jd mcm ni. Semakin hari, aku semakin hlg mereka-2 yg aku syg.
Ada cerita disebalik Dad ni, kalau nk cite kat sini, kang malu pulak Dad nnti.
And just salah faham dgn Fara, girlfriend yg paling dia syg.
Tapi aku bersyukur, 2 hari lepas kiteorg cntct balik :}
Tapi aku tk pasti samada hbgan aku dgn dia akn jadi mcm hangat-2 tahi ayam atau sebaliknya.
Aku harap itu lah last utk kiteorg bergaduh.
Aku tk larat lagi dah nak gado dgn ramai org.
Abg, adik syg abg, adik perlukan abg utk protect adik,
Thanks for being there :')

Dan pada tahun 2011 juga lah membuatkan hbungan aku dgn kawan-2 lain
and budak-2 lain hancus </3
Tambah-2 lagi kalau dorang dh dgr mslh-2 aku mcm aku cite td.
Tp itu semua terpulang pada diri masing-2, yang penting, Hati !

Lagi lagi lagi 2011, aku akn kehilangan my superb father :(
Hero aku after arwah Kenny pergi.
Dulu Dad, tp nk buat mcm mana, dia hilang kejap dlm hidup aku.
So yeah, benda yg paling menyedihkan aku pd tahun 2011, 
aku terpaksa akur dgn keputusan family aku.
Dari 2 tahun lepas, hubungan mama dgn ayah tk berapa nk okay.
Tp aku tgk bukan selalu, cuma kadang-2 je.
Tp ayah, promise you, don't be sad cause i'm your daughter, always be with you.
Only God know how hard we tried to selamatkan keadaan :')
Ayahh , I LOVE YOU !
Kalau boleh aku tknak ape-2 terjadi dkt family aku.
Yeah i know this place is quite public for me to story here.
Tp aku dh takde siapa lagi, only blog blog blog !

Ya Allah, ckup lah kau tarik Shazni dari hidup aku, kali ni aku mohon padaMu, 
kau jjgn lah tarik org-2 yg aku syg ni dari hidup aku.
Sesungguhnya, aku tak boleh berdiri tanpa mereka, lbih-2 lagi ayah ku.
Semoga kau perkenankan doa hambaMu ini yang jahat lagi hina, Amin.

Aku tahu aku mesti berdiri kuat sekuatnya utk hadap ni semua.
Tp, aku makin fed up semakin hari, bertimbul-timbul, bertubi-tubi & berlumba-lumba
masalah dtg kejar aku :/
Btl, akku ckp aku hmpir give up !
Tp aku mesti beringat, ada lagi org yg lagi berat masalahnya dari aku.
Ni semua takdir, berdosa klu aku tolak & merungut.
Ayah pernah bagitahu, Allah tk kan trunkan dugaan yg berat pada hambanya 
yg tak boleh tggung.
So aku percaya, aku yakin aku boleh jugak.
Tp, i just need someone to be with me.
I just need friends to give me a strong support.
Heee, tp kawan-2 Ema semua lari tknak kawan :}
Semoga Allah beri aku kekuatang & semangat pada aku, ya aku Emalina Abd Aziz.

Aku syg kau blog. Jgn lahh kau pon pergi jugak ya?
Okayy lah, aku mengantuk ni.
Nak pergi krohh krohh  xD
Wish me luck guys.
Assalamualaikum :)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Rindu Setengah Mati :')

Aku
Ingin engkau ada di sini
Menemaniku saat sepi
Menemaniku saat gundah
Berat hidup ini tanpa dirimu
Ku hanya mencintai kamu
Ku hanya memiliki kamu

Aku rindu setengah mati kepada mu
Sungguh ku ingin kau tahu
Aku rindu setengah mati
Meski telah lama kita tak bertemu
Ku selalu memimpikan kamu
Ku tak bisa hidup tanpa mu

Aku rindu setengah mati kepadamu
Sungguh ku ingin kau tahu
Aku rindu ...
Setengah mati ...
Aku rindu


*the lyrics make me more sad and missing him.


Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Missing You Now :'(

I always gave text on your phone 
People tell me, you can't read it because you're gone
I just tell them you might be gone in their eyes but not in mine
Because you're still in my heart and you always will be
I cry when i think of you
But people keep asked me whyy?
I just tell them how i felt about you and that i still love you
and that i miss you so much
But people just tell me there is no point in still loving you
Because you're gone and you will never be coming back :(
And i agree with them
You're gone but you will never be forgotten
and oneday we will meet again

I promise ..
I pray to God everynight
Askking Him to keep you safe
And sometimes i talked to Him about meeting you again
I wanted to kill myself just so i could see your face again
in heaven 
But then i knew that you would'nt want me to do that :(
I try to be happy but i can't when i know that i won't hear your voice for a long time
I always though that i can live without you
But absolutely i wrong :(
I never though you would have left me :'(

My mom said,
You never left me, God just needed an angel
I even ask God whyy
Why did he have to take you :(
And make me hurt so much
I don't think anyone really knows how much it hurts to be missing you :(

I hate you not being around :'( :'(
I wish i could even see you one last time
So, i could say Goodbye :(
No one understands me anymore
 No one will understands that i will always love you :(

 Babyy, promise me you will meet me again oneday.

Just Read If You Want Okayy :)

I need to be alone for a few days :/
I don't want meet anyone except my father, mother and my laki Esyaa.
Absolutely, i don't know the reason why :(
But, what i know is i need to be alone.

Sometimes, i'm crying --> :'(
Yes, i love crying because to me, crying is the best way
for me to get free all my problems 
even sekejap.
So yeahh maybe this is the reason why my eyes looks like
Panda's eyes right? 
Hell lahh, seburuk mana pon mata aku,
aku sayang dia.
Sebab dia the one and only mata yang aku ada 
and dia lahh yang tahu ape segala masalah aku,
Dan dgn itu lahh, dia tahu untuk keluarkan air mata sebagai peneman aku :')
*korang mesti takfaham kann ?

Sometimes i bored with my life :(
So yeahh i want do something best for my life
But, when i start to created something, there's always something ... --"
And because of this, i fed up but i can't easily give up :)

Hee nowadays, i close with my father :')
He's my body guard, He's my spirit and also my boyfriend. Haha
Now, i always share every single thing happen in my life 
even something about girl.
No need feel ashamed because to me, he can solve it :)
He's my heroo after arwah Kenny Kent.
I love you Father <3

I miss my mother :(
She's my spirit too. Seriouslyy i can't live without her.
I love both of you :')

Yeahh, nowadays, i being a rude girl.
Sorry to anyone yang kurang senang :(
But this is not because i friend with 'siti' lahh :')
Shes never ever ever teach me How to be a rude girl. 
So yeah peeps, don't blame on her please ?
She's my husband ever, so i won't because of this,
Me with her = Broken :/
I don't have anyone else okayyyy.

Lastly, i miss my late boyfriend --> Kenny Kent.
But, rindu rindu aku, i can't do anything.
Just accept and smile plus pray for him there :')
I believe, He's always look after me.
I believe, He's always want the best for me.
I  believe, He miss me so much cause masa dia hidup pon, dia selalu 
ajak meet, lepak and always told me that he wanted spent all his time for me :')
And yeahh 
I believe, my 'jodoh' is with him even dekat dunia sana :')
But if not, my dear God, please send me boyfriend like Kenny.
That's all.
I'm not desperated nak boyfriend sangat okayy.

*sorry if my English broken, i'm on practise
because Practise Make Perfect.
Goodbyee.